i find babytan very very cute :D
baby ! :D heehee hmmms :D see this thing is still at my house , when then u wan take it from me ? ]: the ferrero smells really nice HAAH each time i opened it up i got an urge to eat it HAHA ! i miss you baby :D heehee our 13 month is coming baby !
heehee yesterday , i went to look for u guys at 627 , and starting u din bother about me , i dun like it ! i like it when u and care gives me attention heehees ! and after tht augustine asked me to go for dinner with him and u told him if i want den i go lor , you really dun mind at all ? but i very scared u will not happy , so i keep giving signal to augustine to call u along too heehee :D but i honestly want u to come along with me too !
but when we walk , u din hold my hands , idk whads wrong HAHA ! oh wells . den after dinner den u were back to normal , yay baby is back :D and i find u super super cute when pikiam said i whad ever the asshole thing hahas and your reaction was omg so cute :p heehees ! baby , u never called me anymore , whad happened? do u miss me seriously? i can honestly said , i dun misss u tht much anymore cause u din call me and slowly i stop thinking of u and i only thought of u when i see your pic or anything . baby i feel we are drifting apart . i'm afraid something bad might happen.
i shouldnt think so much , but woman's 6th sense is really on spot . and you made me feel as if u dont even bother about this relationship . i miss u alrights a little HAHA ! :p see . i love you baby .
i'm really excited for christmas alrights ?!
this blog is isnt complete , because i want to put pictures of baby and me tgt :D heehees , and babytan hasnt know about this link / this blog at all . heehee i want to make this really beautiful before showing him hahas , but but another part of me really really want to let him know it now now now . heehees . but he isnt tht kind of a blog / computer kind of person i wonder if i'll be the only one updating ? if yes , hahas owells i'll do it . heehees :Dyesterday i went for pool with happy people , :D heehee yesterday things those things arent cleared up yet , so i was kinda afraid baby will be going . hehees , and when i realised he isnt there i'm happy heehee and kinda missed him as well . really wanted to see him but at the same time i dont want to see him . heeeheee complicated rights ?! :D heehees , and yeah another reason is cause i forgot to put on our ring , and when he sees it i'm afraid he might get everything the wrong way .
but during pool , yh texted me and say they are coming , baby ; joachim and yihui . i got really nervous and idk . but after pool saw them , and when i tried smiling to baby , he gave me those face . idk why . den my moood just drop and i pulled amelia away , and when they say they say they buying studs amelia also wanted to buy so i followed . but baby do u know how hurt issit to see you giving me those face like ._. idk HAHA ! reminds me when i'm not with you :D
and when we sat down to eat , you were playing your games not even giving me a damn , i so sad ]: hahas . but after eating u actually pulled me up . you know how happy am i babytannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ? :D :D heeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee just very happy lorhs HAHA ! but after tht you behave the same again , not even giving me a damn but heehee i'm still happy YAY ! heehees . and when i got off the bus . i sat and thought about everything . heh , u din gimme a goodbye kiss ]': but i'm still happy .
BABY ! heehee and at night i wanted to really apologise to u so i called your house . first time , cause i'm always afraid of your parents answering the phone HAHA but last night i'm so brave , your mum answered the call and she told me you are not in . heehees and i was like uh , oh okay thank you BYE ! and this morning you called me , waking me up and i forgot whad i actually wanted to say HAHA and you went to sleep first , and called me after tht when i apologized but you only said nevermind . you do mind dont you? :D i missed you honestly , when can u get a phone line baby ? i love you :D
Labels: i'm afraid of you ., yes
i smile when i see your pictures .
last night , i was waiting for baby's call cause he promised he would call . i waited and waited he still hasnt called , each time my phone would ring i'll get really excited and after tht disappointed cause it isnt you . i wonder whad are you doing , and i start losing faith , losing hopes . i talked to some of his friends , they told me some stuffs , i got really hurt . why am i always the last to know stuff . they told me you had made the decision on not to treat me as well as the first time and it hurts me really badly cause maybe i misunderstood everything i dunno but i felt so cheated . i feel as if you are getting back on me cause of the way i treated you previously . thts how i felt baby . i was mad at you and i hated you honestly.
and then you called , you started out nice but i was thinking about tht thing tht happened i dun really know how to let you know . so i screwed up the whole phone call leaving you really pissed with me . it only made me felt worst cause actually i wanted to apologised to you cause i know i was in the wrong . i've asked you if you trust me , you reply me with " why suddenly ask this question " and when i insisted on you answering my question then you said you do and you din say anything about me whatever . i have a feeling tht you were lying baby . but why wouldnt you trust me .
after the call i felt terrible , i wanted everything to end . and i called bird . he talked to me comforting me . asking me to go to bed and not think so much . but baby i'm really afraid , i'm really afraid . i dont wish to lose you again . i love you , and you said you would call me this morning when u go home , i'm still waiting . baby this love is tough , are we strong enough to go through it together ? i miss you .
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